A Mixture of Both Good & Bad

I woke up this morning feeling somewhat decent. The mission at hand was to go to work and have a successful day...Somehow it didn't go that way. It wasn't completely horrible but it wasn't great either. I've realized that I'm at some type of standstill and I want out. I realize that I can't change my outcome by just talking about it I have to put some action behind it. So with this New Year quickly approaching, I've decided to have a new outlook on life. I can't keep living in the past I have to face my inner demons and forgive those who have caused me pain as well as to forgive myself for the pain I may have caused them. I've realized that I'm far from perfect and I can't judge anyone. We all have a purpose in this life to be the bes t that we can I can't keep settling for just the average. I deserve the best whether it be in respect in general or even a relationship. I want to be better than what mother was and to me she's my hero, but I now understand why she always told me to absorb as much as I could. It taught me that whatever it is that I learn no one can take it away from me. She lives in me everyday and I hope to pass it on to my children in the future. I hope to somehow make a difference in the lives of others that I  encounter in the years to come. This is my motivation to never give up. I have a destiny to fulfill.